Today I embark on another adventure in dealing with my diabetes. I am usually not one to talk about my diabetes a whole lot- not because I am embarrassed or shy or like to pretend it's not there ( believe me, I KNOW it's there every moment of my life :) ; it's just that I try really hard for people to know who I am. There is more to me than diabetes.
So anywho, this past week I got a new toy called a Continuous Glucose Monitor. Now in addition to my insulin pump which is connected to my 24/7, I also have a sensor which monitors my blood sugar non-stop. There are obvious upsides to having such a device. Now instead of poking my finger 10-12 times a day, I only have to do it 2! My fingers are singing this things praises for sure! I am constantly alerted if my blood sugar is moving out of my target range and it lets me know if I am heading for a reaction- aka- really low blood sugar. Now, the downsides- I have to wear another big sticky piece of tape with a transmitter stuck in it. It stays on for a continuous week at which time you have to insert another one. I don't know about you, but being only 5 feet tall, I have limited skin real estate. We will see how this goes! Another kinda bummer thing is that I have another bulky monitor clipped to my pants. Can't wait for all the random questions I will get about that! And last but not least, my self-esteem took a temporary hit. I seriously feel like a walking medical equipment advertisement. However, I have the most amazing husband ever who quickly reassured me that he thinks I am beautiful- no matter how many pieces of plastic and wire are both in me, and hooked to the outside of me. :)
I know that to have the longest and best quality of life, diabetes is something I have to work at every single day. I want to grow old with my hubby and family and not from a wheel chair, being blind and legless. I am grateful to live at a time where Heavenly Father has blessed people with the abilities and talents to create such products, because though at times they are inconvenient, they do improve the quality of life for those of us dealing with this disease.
Yes, the rumors are true! We are expecting our first baby! My heart is so full and at times, I still want to pinch myself because it doesn't seem real. Words fail me. I am humbled, grateful, shocked, so in love already....For a really long time, I wasn't even sure I would ever be able to have a baby. Heavenly Father has truly blessed us more than I can imagine. Already I have seen the miracles occurring in our and our baby's lives. The journey is not going to be easy, but I know I will have tons of help along the way. I feel the Spirit so strong and know that it is power beyond my own that my blood sugars have been as great as they have and that I have not had to deal with any of the bummer side effects alot of pregnant women do. I feel great and haven't been sick once so far. A true miracle and blessing! Jeff and I are so amazed that we get the opportunity to be parents to one of our Father in Heaven's spirits. We are SO BLESSED and SO EXCITED!!
